Featured image: The greatest photo of all time: My uncle and aunt from the states, my friends Mason, Sidra, Benji, and Kat, and Omar and his entire family all united for breakfast!

Today, I was walking home and I saw a kid who could not have been older than seven ask his mom, “What is the relationship to what is happening right now to the Dictatorship? Is it because people want a better life but can’t have it?” His mom looked at him proudly and began to break down the intricacies of the current political situation as he gave her his unwavering attention.

It is hard for me to categorize the last five weeks of civil unrest in Chile. Some parts, like the first night of the state-imposed curfew or the national strike that featured a massive fire barricade in a street close to my house, feel immensely vivid and recent, while other powerful but more ongoing experiences, like seeing and feeling the sting of the first wave of tear gas, being endlessly amazed by the courage and fearlessness of politically-active Chileans, or participating in cacerolazos, feel more distant. In spite of the destruction, pain, and chaos, the true value of what is happening lies in conversations and curiosity, whether they be between a mother and her son or a nation and their government, that this unbottling of pain has sparked. Chile Despertó or Chile Woke Up.

I could feel the first sting of tear gas as I took this photo. If you look closely, you can see the fire barricade through the smoke.

I have noticed that when I talk about the situation in Chile to my friends and family or on social media, I feel this weird divide about how to present the situation: on one hand, it is crucial to denounce the horrors happening right now and in the last 50 years, whether it be the lingering fear instilled in people during the Dictatorship or the 300 people and counting who have been systematically blinded by carabineros (police officers) while protesting. On the other hand, I absolutely adore Chile and the people I have met, the chilenismos that I have integrated into my speech habits (¡Sipo!), and the buzz of my city on a normal day. I do not want people who have never experienced Chile to read one or two headlines and dismiss the nation as corrupt, foreign, or other, because it is not—it is impressively mirrored after the United States. To criticize the situation in Chile is to also criticize some of the same systems of oppressions and legal and economic systems in the U.S. that have led to unmistakable inequality and ignited a fire within the souls of Chileans and also literally in the streets.

Perhaps unsurprisingly, this has led to a couple of intense waves of anxiety that rendered my normal processing tools not so useful. The first few weeks were tough due to the combination of tons of time but no schedule or classes, not really being able to leave the house, and zero head space to focus. However, three strategies made a huge difference for me. The first one: exercise. Running or going to the gym has helped carve out head space that did not exist beforehand. Since my university was my main source of a gym and it has been unreliably open, I invested in a $20 gym nearby, complete with a cat(!) named Sofia who roams as she pleases. Second, I set up an appointment with a counselor by phone. What I forgot is that with my language pledge is that the only people who I talk to in English about my feelings are my friends and family back home. Talking freely and in my native language about my feeling is immensely valuable and a bit necessary. Lastly, inspired by my grandma and sister and their knitting skills, I decided to get back in the knitting game after not having knit since I was 12. It is lovely to have something to do with my hands and weirdly fulfilling to transform a ball of yarn into useful objects.

Despite some of the difficulties of being here, I have had many moments in the past few weeks that have made my heart sing. Here are some of them:

  • Pre-revolution in Chile, my aunt and uncle made plans to come visit me and then for us to explore Peru for a couple of days. Unfortunately, their planned visit fell right in the middle of the state-imposed curfew and the start of unrest. However, they had all the logistics planned and decided to come anyway. Despite the curfew and protests, they still managed to meet nearly every important person in my life here, from friends, to host family, to Omar and his family. On their last day in Chile, we had a huge breakfast and this photo of lots of my people together makes me really happy. Peru and Machu Picchu were even more amazing than I can describe with words.
The #1 thing to do in Cuzco: a chocolate making class (so worth ruining my appetite for dinner afterwards).
A selfie of my aunt, uncle, Omar, and my host family, skillfully photoshopped by yours truly to include my sister who arrived 15 minutes after taking the photo.
  • During lunch one day, Seba, my sister’s boyfriend, wanting to know where I lived in the states in relationship to my host mom’s sister who lives in Georgia, he asked, “¿Dónde vive la Mira?” With a huge smirk on her face, my sister responded, “¡Mira vive aquí!” or Mira lives here :’)
  • I was bubble tea for Halloween.
My amazing host mom, abuela, and me on Halloween; I was bubble tea.
  • One day, my host mom called me to the front door because my friends had arrived. I had not invited anyone over and was surprised to see two blonde girls waiting by the door. “Hmm… I don’t think I know them,” I told her. She laughed and said she just assumed I knew all the gringos in Viña. We went to see who it was and awaiting were two Mormons speaking very very very basic Spanish hoping we would join their church. After a conversation made painful by the language differences, I jokingly said to my mom, “I sure hope my Spanish doesn’t sound like that!” She smirked and responded, “Only sometimes!”
  • This past weekend, my and a bunch of my friends planned a trip to Maitencillo, a lovely beach town about an hour away. We cooked, played frisbee on the beach, drank homemade bubble tea that I made, and even went skinny dipping in the freezing ocean the first evening. It really was a slice of paradise and made me so grateful for the connections I have developed here in so little time.
Me and some of my pals drinking homemade bubble tea in Maitencillo; @ Twisted Soul and Tea Talk, I’m coming for ya.


  1. Wow, you’re the cutest bubble tea I’ve ever seen. Ánimo! You’re almost done with what I imagine has been a transformative experience, and I’m so thankful that you’ve been keeping us all up to date on the current situation in Chile. 🙂 Can’t wait to visit someday myself!

  2. My heart aches for you as I think about your upcoming transitions. It is a ways so bittersweet to move onto the next adventure- especially after gaving immersed so completely. I will be holding you in my thoughts!

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